The Scoop: A Ray Of Sunshine

It’s sometimes very difficult for us to understand the wisdom and the love behind the things that God has planned. But we wouldn’t have the rainbow If we didn’t have the rain; We wouldn’t know the pleasure If we never tasted pain.We wouldn’t love the sunrise If we hadn’t felt the night; And we wouldn’t know our weakness If we hadn’t sensed God’s might.We couldn’t have the springtime or the yellow daffodil we hadn’t experienced the winter’s frosty chill. And though the brilliant sunshine is something God has made. He knew too much could parch our souls so He created shade. So God’s given us a balance:Enough joys to keep us glad, Enough tears to keep us humble,Enough good to balance bad. And if you’ll trust in Him you’ll see though yesterday brought sorrow,The clouds will part and dawn will bring a happier tomorrow.

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My Mom shared this poem with me via email today. It really sums up my life over the past 6 months. It was extremely difficult for me to let go of my situation and put it completely in God's hands. I have become an insomniac. I remember tossing and turning one night as I was trying to relax my mind and all of a sudden I sat up in my bed and said "Okay, enough of trying to do carry this on your own. Give it to God." I closed my eyes and prayed. I felt goose bumps all over my body as I finished my prayer. For days, weeks, and months I anxiously waited to see what God was going to do in my life. I was getting glimpses everyday however of His purpose and His plan. He was growing me. I was learning to rely more on him and less on myself. Even in the days when I wanted to crawl in a hole and bury myself he sent me Angels through my friends and family. I still desperately wanted time with Craig. I wanted answers to this situation and I wanted to know that it was going to get better.

Finally, this past Friday night, after all the rain, I got a ray of sunshine. We went out on what I would like to call our Second First Date. He came to my house to pick me up. As we approached his truck he opened my door for me. We went to Carrabba's (one of my favorites) and had dinner. We talked a lot at the dinner table but not about what we had been through. It was truly like being on a first date but this time it was with my best friend. After dinner we had some time before our movie started so we walked around at Sandhills just window shopping. We entered the theater to see P.S. I Love You. If you haven't seen the movie I won't ruin it for you but it is a great movie. It is a chick flick but as I sat there I heard words blaring from the speakers that I had once heard in my own mind but had not gotten the courage to say. Things like "When you walk into a room and he looks at you that is when you have arrived." Tears streamed down my face. The night ended with Craig walking me to my door and kissing me goodnight. I went to bed with warm fuzzies and thanking God for my ray of sunshine.